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Tuesday, October 04, 2005 - 7:20 PM
pede mamatay nalang ako?
shortly after i have posted my latest entry.. the computer shop that i was in was held-up. four men took whatever they could (including my phone and my money). two of them were carrying guns. while the other two were with knives.
they locked us up inside the shop. we couldn't come out... they had to shout for help. i, on the other hand, remained in silent contemplation. my phone? why did they have to take my phone? i feel that i have died because i do not have my phone any longer.
i am so not the luckiest guy on earth.
i decided not to attend school today. first of all, i was needed in the police department for my statement. second is that i think i need time to work out my problem with love..
i watched 'My Sassy Girl' and 'Windstruck' today. it was a wrong move, for it only brought back the memories that WE've shared together. i cried yet again. haha.. imagine. a 5'11, extremely jolly college student crying while the background music of windstruck was playing... but i can't help it. i didn't cry the day i knew that we were finished.. siguro all my tears catched up on me... i cried a lot.
now i will still cry whenever a song that reminded me of him plays... i was disheartened when my phone was taken away from me.. my last memory of his voice was within that phone.. his message. his song. i will not be able to hear them again.
but my heart will never forget them.
i know that i could not go on like this.. i have to move on... i will, eventually.. but for now, let me weep and wallow over a dream that i once thought would turn into reality...
let me live the reality that he has gone... let me live...
p.s.
it is our monthsary today... dapat..
ehjiboi got weird at 7:20 PM
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