Wednesday, May 28, 2008 - 6:14 PM
'Mabisyo, gago, suwail. Akala nya matagal nya nang kilala ang sarili. Pero sa pagakakataong yon, habang naglalakad sya sa kalsada, nakilala nya ang totoong Noel na inilibing ng lipunan sa ilalim ng imaheng ibinibintang nito sa kanya. Batang takot, mahina, nagangailangan ng kalinga.’ MACARTHUR, libro ni Bob Ong
drama pare. napaiyak ako don. di nga.
Monday, May 26, 2008
- 7:30 PM
something or other
if i were a frog or a lizard or any other insect eating creature, i'd be stuffed by now.
madaming gamu-gamo (may dash daw sabi ng kapatid ko) na lumilipad sa paligid ko ngayon. now the usual thing that old people do is to turn off the lights, which is what my lola just did. so mukhang may power shortage sa bahay namin ngayon, but the monitor gives the disguise away. normally (or what i guess what normally is), you'd rather turn the pc off than let creatures fly into you in numbers. but here i am, typing blindly into my blog. well, i am kinda cheating since i have my phone/flashlight between my teeth.
now that i am typing randomly, let me randomly type something. :)
last friday (may 23rd), i went somewhere in taytay to attend a reunion.... again. this time i'd be meeting up with my elementary friends (which are most likely my high school friends as well). now the weird thing is, mas madaming pumunta sa elementary reunion kesa sa high school GRAND reunion na ang school pa ang nag organize. i can only think of a few reasons kung bakit. a.) gusto naming makita ang isa't-isa after some 7 or 8 years and b.) mahirap mag yosi/inom in front of the teachers.
actually mahirap parin mag yosi/inom in front of my elementary friends kasi karamihan sa kanila ay non-smoking/drinking kids. but at least mas may kasama akong mag-yosi sa labas.
the whole reunion was just a long chit-chat among friends who needed 8 years' worth of catching up. nakakatuwa lang na the last time that we saw each other, maliit pa or pumipiyok pa ang boses namin. now here we are with bigger... voices (at least majority samin)! tsktsk, such dirty minds. and a lot more to to talk about other than our homework and cartoons too like some of us are gay now. woot! ü
over all, the reunion was ok. plans of an EK trip was made. ü
basta i'm happy! really really REALLY happy.
that's about it. gamu-gamo's are gone now. haha.
Friday, May 16, 2008
- 10:08 PM
happily ever after
we were watching Enchanted (for the nth time) a while ago because we had nothing to do. the movie is a big hodgepodge of some of the well-known Disney pictures like Snow White, Cinderella, and Sleeping Beauty - what with all the happiness and rabbits and singing.
what makes this movie interesting for me are the lines of some of the characters and the songs. one dialog that sticks was from the wicked stepmother/witch/hag and Nathaniel, the sidekick.
'Where are you sending her my queen?'
'To a place where there are no happily ever afters.' *enter evil laugh*
i like it. this is a movie that tells you to not lose faith in love. that something good will really happen. maybe one of the reasons why i am so touched by this movie is because i am back to relating with every ferking love song. i am back to watching my phone light up and expecting someone but gets disappointed because it's just Globe telling you about their stuff. i feel very high schoolish right now. dang love.
my head is not working like it should lately, so i'll leave you with the lyrics of a song that gave me shivers, from the movie Enchanted. this song makes me think of ONE person. pft.
Jon McLaughlin - So Close
You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
And still so far
Monday, May 12, 2008 - 3:16 PM
"There's nothing like puking with somebody to make you into old friends.' - Esther, The Bell Jar
ok so now that i am done with the interesting, catchy introduction, let's get on with the content.
last saturday, i went to our high school grand alumni homecoming (at least that's what it says on the tarpaulin) held at Parkridge sa may Volleygolf. una sa lahat, ang hirap pumunta dun sa place. yes there are services sa gate ng Volleygolf, kaso lang to get to Parkridge you must pay 40php. at dahil mabait ako at wala na akong choice, i paid the amount at lahat ng kasabay ko na 7php lang ang binayad ay makaka abot na din sa Parkridge. i pretended na 1st time kong pumunta dun para mukhang nakaka awa at may excuse ang pagtatanong ko ng directions. so nung umaandar na kami, the woman in front of me kept telling about the surroundings.
'maganda yung resort kasi malaki.'
'dito puro foreigners kasi seminaryo.'
'pag-dating dito, golf course na.'
'hanggang dito lang yung binabayad na minimun.'
ayun, so dapat pala hanggang dun lang sila sa may baba. pero anyway i just smiled and looked kind and said thanks to the people for showing me around.
pag-dating dun sa location, i heard music. i followed the music instinctively pero i stopped before i reached the top of the landing kasi kasal pala yung pinupuntahan ko. sa kabila yung event namin.
there they were, my old teachers. it's kinda weird seeing all of them, most of them doesn't look any different from the last time you saw them. i said hi to them. madalas hindi hi yung sagot nila e, tinatanong nila kung masakit yung piercing ko sa kilay. i get the idea that they never really saw me doing things like getting a piercing or drinking or smoking or having sex. to be honest, i never saw them doing any of those stuff too.
after smiling my way out, hinanap ko na yung mga ka-batch ko. apat palang sila at nasa bababa sila, nagkokodakan.
we did some catching up, usap dito about what keeps us busy. binalikan namin yung mga kalokohan namin dati.
let's skip the program because it's boring. let's stick to the conversation i had with my old schoolmates.
pinaalala nila sakin na napakaloko ko pala dati. pinapako ko yung libro ng isa naming classmate sa desk nya. ang lakas kong mang-asar. there was this one time pa nung first year na bumagsak ako sa isang class, sa Values Education pa.
bagsak ka din? appear!
asteeg. come to think of it, ang tagal na panahon na din pala no?
nung high school, nasa 1st section ako palagi. at kahit hindi man halata sa intsura ko ngayon, i never lit a smoke or drank beer back then. i'm in to those things now.
ang weird pati kasi kahit 20 years old na ko, natatakot parin akong mahuli ng mga teachers ko na nagyoyosi. so nung nandun pa ko sa party, palagi akong lumalabas to sneak a yosi.
that party solidified the fact that change really is constant. change is inevitable.
at kahit ayaw mong magbago, wala ka nang magagawa kasi nagbago ka na.
i went home with the help from a man from a higher batch who gave us a ride to the gate. nag-taxi ako papuntang tomas morato because i'm gonna be having coffee with mingu and other members of Kada.
na-realize ko, the world is getting bigger. and i am glad to have puked with people who i became friends with.
barf. what a cheesy ending. ü
Thursday, May 08, 2008
- 4:21 AM
so yun. bummer.
i was walking in a mall (sa gayway, i mean gateway), medyo contemplating on how good my last few days were. you see, i have spent my last few days with mingu (a suicidal panda). and usually if i am with mingu we eat and have (a lot of) coffee and we talk. and i love talking and coffee. and we also watched The Forbidden Kingdom, na susulatan ko sana ng review dito kaso yun nga, bummer yung nagyari.
so balik tayo sa storya. there i was was smiling rather stupidly about how good my days were, naglalakad, when people started bumping into me. ewan ko lang kung tanga lang ako o tanga lang sila kasi ang taba-taba ng daanan ay nagkakabunguan pa kami. pero di ko na masyado pinansin, kasi nga i was in a good mood.
tapos naalala ko yung phone ko. di ko alam kung bakit pero naalala ko siya. baka kasi may nag-text or baka may ginusto akong itext, kaya hinugot ko yung phone from my right pocket.
wala yung phone.
then a lot of ideas came to my head. realizations pa nga e. at sa dami ng naisip ko, ang ginawa ko lang ay dumiretso papuntang LRT2 at umuwi.
bumili ako ng phone ulit. bago na naman number ko. badtrip. pero ayos lang.
so yun. bummer.
onga pala, after ng isang dekada (di ako nage-exaggerate), may landline na ulit kami. so nakakapag-internet na ko sa bahay at di ko na kailangang pumunta sa shop namin para lang mag blog. yehey.