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Saturday, July 02, 2005 - 11:21 PM
dear you
it's been a very tiring week for me, and i really need to rest.
anyway, something's been bothering me for the passed few days. i felt like i needed to bring this up or i'll surely breakdown.. so here goes..
it pains me to think that for one moent i'm in this surreal reality of being happy in a relationship, then the next moment i find myself aching for the past.. when i was still foolishly thinking that i've found happiness in the hands of love..
how could love do this to me?? crying is not an option, and i will definitely not cry.. but still, one couldn't help but wish that somehow you'd wake up and find yourself wrapped around the arms of someone who loves me for who i am...
i may sound very pathetic.. well, im feeling kinda pathetic today, maybe even apathetic... i feel that i've been going down this melodramatic, black-and-white hole that was called 'heartbrake'.
haha... i laugh my feelings off, pretending that i'll be just fine... that i'll get over it. but deep inside i think things over, and i worry that i may not be able to trust love anymore.
i walk the University and i see pretty faces and i unconciously think of how it would feel like to be truly in love... it doesn't really matter to me if you look like a model or otherwise. im actually a fool for love, love brakes all of my defenses. and if i'm not careful, i might find myself hurting once more.
all i want now is get on with my life, and hopefully find that person who'd take me for me. yung makaka-ride sa kakulitan ko and all...
share ko lng toh, sobrang medyo tinamaan ako pagkasabi samin ng prof nmin sa lit tong line na toh:
i have left you because i cannot live without you..
haay.. love just give me the creeps...
ehjiboi got weird at 11:21 PM
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