Saturday, December 18, 2004 - 1:45 PM
afraid...
fear for learning... sounds ridiculuos right? i don't even know if there's such a thing... but there are instances that i suffer from this impalpable disease...like now...
i've crept into someone's den wanting to know more... but i came out with too much... i can't handle it..i feel my insides churning...
i've wondered into her dreams... and i saw all.. even her nightmares..
it doesn't mean that i didn't like what i saw...i just didn't think she'd have them.. i don't know what to do..maybe im just takin things too deep.. i don't know..
what's wrong? nothing's wrong...i'm just afraid that if i found out even more, i would change...
i don't want to change...
i don't want to feel any change...towards her... i don't want to see anything else... i'm happy with what i see now...
i'm not ready... i'm just not...