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Sunday, July 13, 2008 - 2:00 AM
flashback! plus other random things.
i was rummaging through my stuff kanina out of nothing to do. and i saw this black notebook from way back in high school. alam nyo yun? yung crosswise na paper na pinabook-bind satin ni mrs. cervo? yeah, that notebook. well, i found mine kanina, and it contained all sorts of my emo writing days. though medyo nakakahiya, here are some of 'em. bawal tumawa. am watching you.
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'i miss you!'
i miss your smile, i miss your laugh
i miss your dimpled cheeks
i miss your sweet strawberry kiss
i miss your cherry lips
i miss the way you giggle
i miss the way you frown
i miss your light angelic voice
i miss your sweet sweet smell
i miss you, i love you
what will i do without you?
i'm getting crazy in love with you..
my angel... my life...
sabi nang bawal tumawa e. tsk. but yeah, strawberry kiss? wtf? this was dated 060805, 12:22am
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'peklat'
kagabi, bago matulog
hinubad ko ang aking t-shirt
sa sorang init
syempre, napatingin ako sa aking
payak na katawan at
napansin ko ang malaking
peklat na halos umabot sa aking pusod
naaalala ko, dati pa nakatatak
ang peklat na to sa aking dibdib
nung una'y napaka sakit pa nito
at kumikirot pag hinahawakan.
hinawakan ko siya ngayon,
wala na ang kirot.
napansin ko rin na
kakaiba pala ang peklat na to,
hugis exclamation point.
exclamation point. madalas itong
ginagamit sa mga pangungusap na
sobra.
sobrang tuwa!
sobrang lunkot!
sobrang galit!
sobrang takot!
ilang taon lang naman ang
tanda ko sa peklat na to.
halos lahat ng nangyari, nakita
na nya.
lahat ng sobra at kulang.
hinawakan ko ulit ang peklat ko.
exclamation point.
wala na ang kirot.
wala na ang sakit pero
andun parin ang peklat.
ang exclamation point
na sumisimbolo ng sobrang
alaala.
weird, but i kinda sorta like it. dated 053106, 11:16pm
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prose naman tayo.
'...sa tingin ko, hindi na rin ako karapat-dapat sa love. haha.. madrama noh? pero totoo... hindi ko mapapasaya ng tunay yung magmamahal sakin. tsaka, wala atang makakaintindi sa kalagayan ko ngayon...magulo kasi masyado..'
'...mahina ako... sobrang hina... kaya ako nagpapanggap..'
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well there. sige, laugh all you want. i had this very stong urge to edit some of 'em, but i just couldn't. it wouldn't be the same. this is me from before. and i wouldn't be the same me now kung hindi ako dumaan sa ganito. ü
anyway! enough of the nostalgia, lemme tell you one thing. go watch mamma mia! i can't write anything about it kasi di ako makapag-construct ng maayos na sentences to describe it. it's just so damn good. it'll lift your spirits up.
what else is new about me? apat na ulit mata ko.
yun lang. ü
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Tuesday, July 01, 2008
- 6:35 AM
award
mapunta tayo sa usapang awards.
kanina, i was at starbs edsa central alone. may-iniintay.
i need my TIN for my new work at makati, and i needed to go sa dati kong office for it. dumating ako dun ng mga 9pm-ish. the person who could look my TIN up wasn't there yet. 11pm pa daw. sige, i'll wait since sayang ang pinunta ko pag umuwi ako.
so there i was, sa kapihan, mag-isa. i needed something to do other than coffee and yosi. wow, may newspaper. asteeeeg.
i read two newspapers. same headlines. about this good woman who gave up being a journalist in the US and became part of a group of people who helps somewhere in ifugao. nice girl. she taught and english and literature to kids, and she had to walk a lot just to get to where the kids are. nice noh? yun nga lang pinatay sya while she was walking alone.
the bastard who killed her said, in his defense, that he thaught the lady was his enemy from the village. doy. nakak-inis na rason yan amp. the girl was hit from behind by a stone, got 15 brusises, mainly sa ulo. if i were the bastard, i would've realized that i was hitting the wrong person maybe.. i dunno, sa unang hit ko sa kanya?
bastard was sentenced a lifetime in prison. he can't be killed, kasi bawal sa pinas ang death sentence.
it's just sad that this woman had such good intensions tas papatayin sya ng walang kamalay-malay. at ang pinaka-sad sa lahat was she was given the Order of the Golden Heart award after her death. posthumously, ika nga.
really sad that we recognize a thing that's good kapag wala na.
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sa theater org namin sa UST, award might mean another thing. pede itong maging pagpapagalit, pambebenga, pangki-criticize. maaawardan ka pag pinapagalitan ka.
kanina, inawardan ko ang HR department ng company ko dati.
grr.. pano, they were supposed to process my TIN dati pa. i worked for 4months dun, and they were taking deductions for taxes. tas ngayon hihingin ko lang yung TIN ko wala silang mabigay. bummer is an understatement.
'i curse the day they were born!' haha. ang kulit kasi.
anyway, i'll deal with 'em later. i think i should sleep now.
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