Saturday, February 20, 2010 - 11:53 AM
nagkalat ako sa la salle
kahapon, may diarrhea ako nung umaga.
it was la salle's fair yesterday. i was exited kasi it'll be the first time i'll go in the campus ng legal. we got on our way early, and we arrived in taft at around 11am-ish.
now, just to backtrack, the night before this we ate burger. the buy-one-take-one kind. naalala ko sinasabi pa nung mga bumili na nakakadiri yung kuko ni manong burger person. ako naman si 'ok lang, masarap naman e.'
so yun nga, and ending ko diarrhea in the morning. nag number 2 bago kami umalis. at dahil ako ang tipo ng tao na naniniwalang isang (loperamide) diatabs lang ok na, umalis kami ng bahay na magaan ang loob.
akala ko lang pala yun.
dumating kami ng mcdo taft at kumain. tapos joe met his friends/group mates for some school work. dun na nag-act up yung tiyan ko.
i can say, in my lifetime, never pa akong tumae anywhere but sa bahay. not necessarily sa bahay ko. may mga piling bahay ng mga kaibigan na nana-number 2-han ko. pero palaging sa bahay. kaya nung naramdaman kong kumakalam ang tiyan ko, di ko na alam gagawin.
i wanted to just go to the nearest hotel, rent a room and shit there. para private. pero di ko kinaya. so i had to number 2 sa pinaka-paborito kong kapehan: starbucks.
yun ang pinaka-una kong pagtae sa public place. at napaka-swerte ko nga naman na ang pangalawang pag-tae ko sa public place happened the same day. saan? sa loob ng la salle.
nagkalat ako sa la salle. literal.
ok lang, at least i ain't a virgin to number 2-ing sa public places na.
after i took a dump sa la salle, umayos na ang takbo ng araw.
di man ako nakapag-bungee thingy in fear of shitting accidentally, i was able to sit-in naman sa class nila joe. i even took down notes, para maganda tignan sa planner. i was able to roam around the campus not feeling guilty for once. nakakain din ako ng cheap frozen yogurt, and it ain't bad. fine, fan boy na, but i was able to meet and take a picture with one of my fave volleyball players, cha cruz.
after la salle, pumunta kami kina sam for karaoke and poker. i actually won 50php sa poker game. another first for me.
at sinabi ko nga kahapon. 'this day will go down my blogsite.' and despite the rough (or rather smooth) start, yesterday was one of the best.
Friday, February 12, 2010
- 11:02 AM
One grande iced white chocolate mocha for you!
yesterday on my way to taft, Starbucks texted me about my application for a barista position. i was excited. matagal ko ng pinasa online yung resume ko sa kanila and i was losing hope na. plus, matagal ko na ding dream ang sumigaw ng "One grande iced white chocolate mocha for you!'
so kahit wala akong damit for the interview (business attire) at kahit wala akong dalang updated resume, sinabi ko sa sarili ko pupunta ako sa interview. kahit 8am pa yan. mnghihiram nalang ako ng damit.
i told my boyfriend and my friends about it, and they were pretty confident that i'll get in. to tell you honestly, i was pretty confident that i'll get in. i mean, sige mayabang na kung mayabang pero i've been on a successful streak. i got hired by JP Morgan Chase last year, tapos nung nag entrance exam ako sa la salle antipolo i passed with flying colors. confidence pare, confidence.
kagagaling ko lang sa interview ngayon. i was asked to fill out a form and then wait with 6 other people for the interview. first group interview ko, but still, i was confident.
the interviewer went in and asked each of us to stand when called and tell something about ourselves. i was called first, and after the usual stuff na sasabihin mo sa isang interview, he asked me one question. yun na yun, isang question lang.
i was pretty sure that i answered well naman. mukhang di naman ganun kapangit grammar ko.
natapos ang interview. we were asked to wait for a letter stating the result of the interview. usap-usap kaming mga applicants. tapos yun na, dumating na siya.
i was expecting a letter saying i got in, but to my horror, i didn't. ok sige, medyo exaggeration yung horror, but i was a shocked.
di ko talaga ineexpext na di matanggap. and out of the 6 other people na kasama ko, isa lang ang nakapasa.
ho em gee. it's my first failure in a very, very long time. para akong nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig. nanliit balls ko. i thought i could do pretty much anything i put my mind to.
inisip ko baka inisip nila na i don't need the job naman. that i am able to get a higher paying job.
pero baka i didn't put my mind into it. baka i got too confident, tapos nakalimutan ko na pwede nga akong magkamali. na dapat iniisip ko parin mga sinasabi at ginagawa ko.
lesson learned: DO NOT BE TOO CONFIDENT!
keep in mind na kahit madami ka ng nagawa sa buhay mo, madami ka pading hindi alam.
so here i am, blog inspired because of coffee na dapat magpapa-energize sakin. at least nakapag-blog ako ulit.
oh well, better luck next time ehjiboy.
i think i shall have a grande white chocolate mocha later. for a venti life lesson learned the hard way.
Saturday, February 06, 2010
- 7:28 PM
so it has been a while (yeah right, understatement of the year) since i last posted something on this blog.
i mean, man, facebook really did kill my blogging. it's horrible. i don't even know if i can still call myself a blogger, or a writer even. whenever i get a good idea and start weaving together words to express the idea, my mind goes @!@##$@# because of facebook. nagiging facebook status yung dapat blog entry. but i shall try my bestest to go back to writing. for my sanity's sake.
now, about what i am writing about.
my dad pm-ed me through facebook just a while ago. he was asking me to man our shop tomorrow. i said yes. it's quite normal for me to go to the shop on mondays. the strange part is all of a sudden, he asked me to remove his girlfriend from our (my siblings and i) account sa facebook.
ok, i know. that's weird in many different levels. but it just caught me off guard.
i have long ago accepted the fact that my father is living with a younger woman. i have also accepted the fact that he will never live with us again. in the same house, i mean. and about a little over a year ago, i have accepted the fact that i have another brother born from their (dad and girlfriend's) seemingly healthy, unmarried relationship.
tapos biglang ganito?
i am 22 years old, have 5 siblings (one just turned a year old a few months go), and am trying desperately to reach whatever dreams i have left. i think i can say i am having it hard here. i am too tired to go through this father and pseudo-mother break up thing again. am too tired and too old. and i think my father's too old for this thing too. i mean, he should get a grip. dammit.
so anyway, with all that said, i will still tell my brother and sister to remove my dad's girlfriend from facebook. he's still my dad.
have a nice day people.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
- 12:36 PM
of shooting stars and green tea
yesterday, i manned our computer shop. my dad usually mans the shop, wala kasi kaming mahanap na trustworthy na bantay. but yesterday my dad had to go somewhere to buy something and he asked me to do the work. so i said yes, kasi wala naman akong magagawa about it.
anyway, wala naman masyadong kinalaman yun sa sasabihin ko sa inyo. intro palang yun. hehe.
there i was, sitting patiently by the main computer, thinking about how i'd love to eat some ice cream and oreos and pancakes when my friend An Konim (a.k.a. baby boy) texted me that our other friends Cai Dumandal and Sarah Lacanienta wanted to have a tea party. LOL. tea party daw. haha.
before, when the four of us meet, we drink The Bar while playing card games. The Bar with iced tea. The Bar with soda. then we thought we ought to change our ways and drink less kaya kape naman tinira namin. kapeng barako and hazelnut coffee. this went on for a long time.
siguro naisip nila masama parin sa katawan ang kape kaya they want to drink tea instead. ok lang naman sakin. pauwi na din naman ako. and i thought to myself i won't stay for long, just in case my dad wants me to man the shop again.
i closed the shop just before it hit 12am. i went home to get a jacket (it was coooold outside) and am off to meet my friend.
nung una parang nung dati lang, except we're having tea. naisip namin tumatanda na nga kami. ano kaya titirahin namin by next year, nganga? anyway, we were playing cards when baby boy saw something in the sky. shooting star daw. sabi namin, ulol. guniguni mo lang yun.
pero dahil baby boy nga sya, di parin napigilan at lumabas para tumingin sa stars. and what do you know, may shooting star nga daw. shooting stars. mukhang may meteor shower daw.
dali-dali kaming lumabas nila cai at sarah to watch. we waited for a while, laughing and making fun of each other. and there it was, like an invisible giant pen slashed its luminescent ink in the sky, a shooting star.
manghang-mangha na ko sa isang shooting star. pero shortly after the first (and as it turned out, the brightest) one, may mga sumunod pa. we were mesmerized.
kumuha na ng banig si baby boy so we could all lie down and just watch. we watched till we had our fill. we went back to the nipa hut quite elated. we just witnessed a meteor shower. and even if my wishes don't come true (oh but i do hope they do), it was still magical.
we played a few more games and i lost a little here and there. and if i were to man the shop the following day (and yes, i am manning the shop today), kahit wala ako masyadong tulog, ok lang.
nakakita naman ako ng shooting stars.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
- 12:06 PM
after a very long time, we received word from my mum.
now, to give you an idea why this is a ig deal, let me tell you a short story about my family.
my parents have been separated for around 10 years now. my dad lives with someone else now, somewhere in angono. at least nagkikita kami once in a while. i now have 5 siblings, 2 girls and a baby boy.
i don't know what happened to my mum. last time i saw her, high school pa ko nun.
i live with my lola.
but that doesn't really matter. i don't care about my mum anymore. you might think that's a very mean thing to say, but i have my reasons like her drug abuse and all that.
anyway, this morning we received a summons from her. well, actually, para sa dad ko yun. she's petitioning that their marriage be annulled.
ok lang naman sakin eh. as in, ok lang. kaso may mga nakalagay sa petition nya na maling information.
item number 4 on her petition says, "That as a result of their love, affection and mariage together, they were blessed wth three children namely. ANGELO GABRIEL CARAON (me), ANTHONY FRANCIS CARAON and AILEEN CARAON, who are now all of legal ages and married but their residences and whereabouts are unknown and can no longer be located;
in item number 5, "...her husband Reynaldo B. Caraon...left and abandoned the former (mum) in 1997;
this clearly shows na walang kamalay-malay i mum about us, her kids. ok, francis and i are of legal age, but we are not married yet. aileen is 14. siyempre di pa siya kasal. i mean, we don't want her money and all. but this is blatantly telling us that she doesn't care about us at all. and hello, this petition went to our house, di niya kami ma-locate?
and please, my dad did not just leave her. ang pagkakatanda ko, she left. but if my dad was the one who left, well , madaming mga dahilan talaga na makakapag-provoke nun. isa dun yung pagpapa-rehab namin sa kanya. twice. di gumana. isa palang yun.
i have to admit, i was a little surprised. i didn't think my mum had the wits to do something like this. oh well.
may my parents live a happy, annulled life soon.
Monday, November 09, 2009
- 5:41 PM
i was watching sex and the city a while ago, and they were talking about sex and soul mates. since i am a wholesome person, sa soul mates napunta attention ko.
sabi sa http://dictionary.reference.com ang soul mate ay: One of two persons compatible with each other in disposition, point of view, or sensitivity.
one of two. so our society(or at least the dictionary) tells us that there is only 1 soul mate for a person. fine, may isa. ok na yun. ang problema kasi, 6.796 billion ang tao sa buong mundo. minus one, kasi ikaw yun. pano yun? eh sa pilipinas palang 91,983,000(trueknowledge.com) katao na ang nakatira. and we are expeted to find that one person. good luck talaga.
when we reach a certain age, we start to look for that soul mate. depende yan sa tao. minsan maaga naghahanap, minsan uber late na. pero the one goal is to look for that perfect someone that will complete you. we look for them in many different ways. meron pumaparty, may naghahanap sa work, may nagpapaset-up sa friend, speed dating, online, at marami pang iba.
sa isang part ng episode na napanuod ko, sabi ni charlotte pwede naman na silang magkakaibigan ang magso-soul mates. napatango nalang ako.
wag natin pahirapan ang sarili natin. baka sa kakahanap nyo ng soul mate, sa isang perpektong entity na yan, may lumagpas na na taong hindi man perketo, pero handa namang tumanggap sa kung ano ka man.
soul mate• One of two persons compatible with each other in disposition, point of view, or sensitivity (http://www.thefreedictionary.com/)
sa aking dictionary, soul mates are the many people close to you who make life a lot more fun and easier.
Friday, October 16, 2009
- 11:42 AM
Eto Lang ni gab caraon
eto na naman ako
isang batong nakahimlay sa dalampasigan
laging nakatingin sa lawak ng dagat
laging nangangarap na balang araw ay marating din
ang mga narating niya
laging umaasang balang araw ay dalhin ako ng alon
sa ibang lugar
at sumabay sa sayaw ng pag-agos ng buhay
eto na naman ako, nangangarap.
pero eto nga ako. isang bato.
mabigat. matigas. hindi makagalaw.
at hindi tulad ng dagat na madaming nagagawa,
ako na isang bato ay hindi man lang kayang lumuha.